Introverted = It Is What It Is

Published June 2, 2010 by VaLENCIa's MuSiNgS

It appears that Doug knew exactly how to portray the feeling that most introverts feel when faced with having to communicate in a group setting.

My mother and sister are both extroverts that draw energy by having an array of people surrounding them. I’m assuming it’s the sounds of laughter, straightforwardness they express and reactions they get that keep them entertained. I believe they thrive on attention and demand to be heard. I’ve also noticed that they both can hold a grudge until the next total eclipse! (But hey, you didn’t hear that from me). It’s always, “Valencia, you don’t ever want to do anything” or “You are so boring”. Welp, my response to that is: “Get over it”!

I don’t deny that our relationships are strained because of my introversion. However, I can’t be an acceptor of pretense either. It is extremely uncomfortable for me to be around numerous people (whether I know them or not isn’t even a factor), so it’s utterly impossible for me to pretend that I’m having a good time when in actuality I’m completely terrified. Scared I’ll offend someone, scared they won’t like me, scared they’ll think negatively of me. This doesn’t sound like it should be coming from a 40-year-old, but it is what it is.

More to come…


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